Emery giving daddy raspberries!

Happy 2nd Birthday in Heaven

Yesterday marked Keller's 2nd Birthday. I still miss him every day but his birthday and his due date are the worst. I think about what could have been, what he would be like, what milestones he would be passing right now. If had been born on his due date he would be about 19 month old now. I also think about what I could have differently, to change what happened. Probably nothing but part of me will alway wonder why I couldn't keep him safe.

Thank you to all my friends and family for your support during these difficult times. I don't know if these days will get easier with time or not but I will never forget my first baby boy.

We miss you and love you, Keller. Part of us will always be missing, but I know you are in a good place. Thanks for looking out for Emery when I had that big scare while I was pregnant. and thanks for helping me find my wedding ring ;) I love you so much, XOXO Mommy

Blanket my mom gave me yesterday

10 Months old!!!

Can't believe Emery is 10 months! Almost time to start planningher first Birthday Party! In the last month Emery has made leaps and bounds as far as development goes. She is a speed crawler, can't let her out of my sight even for a second or she is on the other side of the room trying to climb the stairs. She will climb all the way up the stairs without help if we let her (with me or Dustin close behind of course). She pulls up one everything and prefers standing to sitting. She can also walk with her walker or holding on to things. She babbles a lot and makes it known when she is not happy!! She is trying new foods all the time and is starting to reject baby food. She really wanted some of my lasagna yesterday!! Other than that she is still fighting her ear infection which has moved to the other ear. She started a second round of antibiotics on Tuesday so we are hoping that will knock it out finally. She can't have any dairy within 2 hours of taking that medication which is why I couldn't give her any lasagna. She was pretty pissed :( . Mushed up veggies just aren't the same.

Johanna is also amazing me with her strides she is growing up so fast. Yesterday I picked her up from school as as we were leaving she held the door open for a lady coming in. I did not tell her to do it, she just did. The lady looked stunned and complemented her on how sweet and helpful she was. Johanna was beaming all the way home and so was I. She truly loves to help. All the other kids' parents always tell me how sweet and polite Johanna is, and it makes me so proud! Dustin and I are truly lucky to have such amazing kids!

Jonah Michael

On Dec 4th, my sister and her husband welcomed their son Jonah into the world. He is a teeny little guy at 4lbs 12 oz, 18" but completely healthy! and gaining weight like a champ! He is the most adorable baby boy ever!

Update on our crazy life...

It seems like I never have time to post anymore because we have so much going on, but when I do have time I can't think of anything to write about that other people may be interested in! A few things happened though...

I had surgery on my wrist. The surgery went well, but I could swear the cyst is still there! WTF?! Did he just cut me open for fun?!?! Maybe it's just scar tissue or something but it feels and looks exactly as it did before except I have a scar now! I am going to make an appointment and get it checked out, maybe it just came back quickly.

Johanna had her three year well visit, and she is perfectly healthy as we pretty much knew. Dr Blum told her that she has to try her vegetables and she always recites what he said verbatim : "Dr Blum said: You have to try your vegetables, you don't have to eat them if you don't like them, but you have to at least try" I think she uses it as an excuse to take one bite and leave the rest, but at least she tries them now.

Emmy had her 9 month visit and she is also healthy except for the mystery ear infection! We had no idea she had one; she is so happy all the time and no fever either! I guess that's good, but I feel sort of guilty that I didn't notice she had an ear infection! She was 21 lbs and 8 oz so she is trying to catch up to sis in the weight dept! She is in the 80%ile for both height and weight!

Johanna hd her first ever Christmas program yesterday! It was cute an chaotic. I can't imagine even trying to keep 100 Toddlers organized, geez. Johanna was a bunny and when it was time to sing she sang on top of her lungs. I wish i had gotten some better pictures but it was dark and the camera I was using wasn't the best, but oh well, I got a few.

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Being pretty

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Waiting their turn

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Bunnies everywhere

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Can't tell who the girl is on the very left but the others are Ruby, Johanna and Jose. Jose is Johanna's best friend/nemisis. They have a love/hate relationship. Jose yells at whoever messes with Johanna but then pushes her 5 minutes later. (I am sure Johanna isn't innocent either)

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Being a bunny